...dance around in my underwear when no one is home.
...watch people who are experiencing puppy love, and secretly wish that a bird would fly up above and shit all over them.
...pick at my toenails
...wonder how different things would be if certain traumatic things didn't happen. to me at least.
...admire those who can open up so easily to people they don't know. but somehow they trust them.
...blame myself for things that i know aren't my fault.
...wish that izzy stevens would be kicked off grey's anatomy because every season she pisses me off even more.
...enjoy having the small circle of friends that i have and no one else.
...talk to myself because there are things i can't talk to other people about.
...fear that i will become that crazy cat lady.
...cry because i feel like such a failure. i'm only 23.
...think that some of the ridiculous things that happen in my life are Gods way of entertaining himself.
...feel the jokes on me.
...wish that the "awesome" girl will be seen as something more than just a friend.
...can't escape myself, and want nothing more than to be something different.
...am completely satisified with how my life is; i'm alive, i have solid friends and a great family.
...think that's not enough.
...disappear. (for awhile at least)
